Ok
I think I need to add a little more and catch up. I haven't been blogging becasue you all have been around, and I like talking to you face to face more than I like talking at you over the internet. So today there is a story.
I awoke tenderly at 8:30, and I was really tired because I have been going to bed really late... Ok, so I get up and I'm tired and I get to school and I have my project finished and I think to myself, I don't care what people say about this, I'm done, noone can see anything in this that I haven't seen, I am the one that has been staring at this thing 50 or 60 hours a week for the last 11 weeks....
And then BAM... When I watched it I saw a few mistakes, decided that I would be selling myself short if I didn't at least try Sally's idea of transfering the 16mm footage, and changing the things about the soundtrack that I didn't like.
But I don't wanna. I'm tired. I don't have the emotional energy to put into this thing!
But I do. And I will. Because I have never spent so much time on anything in my life before, and it's really good, and it could get better. And I don't want to live my life like I have before this.... I want to do better....
I am reading this book called "What they don't teach you in film school" by whoever and whoever.... Most of it doesn't really apply to Evergreen film school but they do have this really great line that I'm going to get tattooed on my face...
"Geniuses finish things". Not that I'm calling myself a genius, but the point is still there. No matter how good your idea is, how good your footage is, how good the sound is, how good your computer is, not matter how good your whatever is... If you don't finish, than what did you? Why didn't you just stop from the get go? So it looks like I have a long weekend ahead of me. Time with the DVX, adventures with 24p advanced pulldown (removal?) or whatever and another week before I can format my hard drive. But at least when my folks come down to see it, I can show them the best that I have. And maybe if I finish I won't hate it anymore, and even if I do who cares... I won't have anymore what ifs lingering around....
Have a good night.